I thought I was the 4th member of Beastie Boys in 7th grade. You couldn't tell me I wasn't. The first time I ever saw them on stage was a very early show of theirs before License to Ill came out, opening for Run DMC at Joe Louis Arena. My jaw dropped to the floor! Not only was I the only white kid in the place (as far as I knew) but I said to myself "Holy shit, there's other white kids that rap?!? WOW!" My mind was blown. When License to Ill came out, it changed everything. All of a sudden people didn't call me a "little rap fag" for liking hip hop. The metal heads liked 'em, the punk kids, everyone! I dressed like them, pegged and rolled my pants, begged my mom for a pair of Ewings, and so on and so on. I rapped about not giving a fuck and crazy shit like they did in my early years. I also followed their lead in later years, after I became my own person, in believing I could really help a lot of people out. MCA I know was at the forefront of this in the group, and for that I am forever indebted. When I heard the news, a crazy chill went through my body like no other. I don't wanna sound all dramatic, but that's the truth, that's the impact he had on me. When I was asked to play MCA in a tribute to the Beasties at the Rock 'n Roll Hall of Fame I said to my buddy ,"Shit, I've been training for this my whole life!" I said it that day, what an honor. I've participated in many such events, but none have I ever been better prepared for than this one. My heart absolutely bleeds for my friend Mike D. and for Ad-Rock. Having lost a member of my own band, I understand a little of what it's like. I only hope in writing this that it brings a little comfort to his friends, family and fans, what an inspiration this man was and always will be to me. We just performed "Fight For Your Right" a few days ago and of course I insisted on being MCA, or at least trying to be him the best I could. - "And if you feel what I'm feelin' than it's a musical masterpiece!" -MCA, Pass the Mic - I HAVE ALWAYS FELT WHAT YOU WERE FEELING IN YOUR MUSIC that you so unselfishly shared with me and the rest of the world. So in short YES I do feel it, and yes it is. From one of your biggest fans, rest in peace homeboy.