Did I mention that ironically, this is the first year we thought we would be able to afford the Chillin Cruise? So, I reserved a cabin for 2, made the down payment, made the first payment, and now, I can't afford it, can't sell it, can't get my money back. Talk about feeling like someone screwed you upside down and side ways! Yet, I can still kneel!
Since June, when my husband lost his job unexpectedly, everything has gone straight down hill. He didn't find another job until mid October. I have robbed Peter to pay Paul, re arranged finances, you would be amazed, when you spend years paying your bills on time, no creditor, no agency, no one period wants to help you. I've had to be late ONCE on the housepayment and twice on a couple different credit cards, which to me are not more important then food. So, here we are less then 2 weeks before Christmas, completely broke!!! Tried to refinance the car, the house, tried for an emergency personal loan, even a payday loan.......because my husband who had the same job for years, now has had his job for less then 90 days AND we have recently been late on payments NOTHING! I went to Salvation Army to try and get help with food and presents for our children, and they say not only do we make too much but we own our house. REALLY!!!????? I have literally worried myself sick.There will be no Christmas for our children this year, and there is nothing else I can do about it it. I have gotten down on my hands and knees and asked God to carry this for me, my health and my shoulders just can not carry this anymore, and at this point, I am not sure my sanity can either! AMEN ?
And the road just keeps getting bumpier!!!! Where are my 3 wishes!!!!?????
This week has been so very hard, a true test of my strength and faith. I so wish for a secluded beach, a bikini, a mixed drink my honey....some Kid Rock of course, and the devil far at bay!
Up swung to the week, my baby girl turned 6 today. Down swing to this month my oldest son turns 20. Sure wish I could hold him and fight his demons!
What a horrible week! Wish I could get to Nashville tomorrow night! But the way this week has been, I could collide straight into Kid Rock , and it wouldn't knock the weight of the world off my shoulders!