“Porn Parade”
She was only sixteen
Looking for the California dream
Untouched so beautiful
Skin just like cream
Went to rehearsal
To shoot her first scene
Wound up in the back room
Down on her knees
Used to be kind of fun
But now she’s all used up inside
Made some money, bought some drugs
Lot’s of forgotten drunken nights
Tells her boyfriend lies
Can’t look him in the eyes
When she looks in the mirror
What she sees she despises
Sadie had it made
No, she never should have strayed
Innocence lost, look at how much it cost
Porn Parade, Porn Parade
As the camera starts to roll
This child Sadie
ajay would have probably
ajay would have probably joined you had I known you were getting drunk too, and have tried too not write on the internet after drinking too much, maybe it would actually be good for me get some real deep stuff out, me saying that is probably bothering some people, I'm sorry about your sister, Jesus does give peace like a river like it says in Isaiah, many signs, other people have seen them too with me, but it seems anyone around me can't get past what I say about some bands and when I talk about spying I completely lose them, have said I want people to know the whole story, want the truth to be known, for one I was treated like a terrorist in my own country, maybe going to lose you now but there a this song about me by Seether called Country Song been bothering me lately maybe because they are coming to town, the way they run me down, and I have talked about going to a church out of the country, can some maybe believe now and see why .
Not to be an ass here, but
Not to be an ass here, but alcohol makes me a little crazy. I am not like that the rest of the time. You might want to check into seeing a doctor or something....Just saying....
I have had made a very firm
I have had made a very firm decision. I WILL no longer post when i have been drinking or i am drunk. I say some crazy assed shit. Then i have to delete all kinds of shit the next day when i am sober! Perhaps i will only drink on occasion like i have been. Because apparently i lose all my good sense when i imbibe.
Hey Ajay. Hope you're feeling
Hey Ajay. Hope you're feeling ok today (No Hangover). It sounds like you were having a well deserved, good time last night. :) I hope you get a chance to check out the new album released from Ashley Monroe that Kid mentioned. I think you'll like it. I know that you like alot of the older country stuff like me, and her voice and music will remind you of that. (It does me anyway). Hope you have a great day. :)
Someday i will meet Kid & he
Someday i will meet Kid & he will know it is right...a motherfucker who is right and not trying to steal him blind....that put $ in his bank account and just wants to be treated right....
I pray like a thug in the
I pray like a thug in the moonlight...praying to the moonlight....wishing my life was right...wish i could get it right....
I am drunk as hell right
I am drunk as hell right fucking now. People i just dunno. I think about taking my sisters ashes. Then i think ah maybe i should wait til i take a cruise or something. Then i think shit she would be all happy for me and want to go now and all i have accomplished. MY SISTER WAS MY NIGGA! People don't get that, but i know KID does. SHE was with me all the way!
You know it is odd this pm
You know it is odd this pm when i talked to my mom about vacation my mom asked if i was gonna take my sister's ashes with me this time. I had put that to the back of my mind. I guess the part of me that didn't want to deal with her being gone was putting it off. I guess i should. This is a triumph. I have made it against all odds. My sister would have been right here congratulating me and saying stick it to them take it further. I many times feel her next to me...the person that ducked out of my life way too soon. KID don't get it, have him talk to his little brother/sister. He has no idea what it feels like to be the little brother/sister and have that person go away...for good. IT just leaves a hole in your life....I miss her everyday.....my sister KARA. I can't fix it or make it better. I got no one to follow anymore. I got to blaze my own trail..that isn't a bad thing @ all i just i dunno...WHO THE FUCK WANTS TO FOLLOW ME!
Your love has strings...you
Your love has strings...you pull to control me....
NOW ppl know what you be saying...i already know the direction, sound, etc....TTYL can't wait to see We're all...in Nashvegas!!!
Congrats on Your RN License
Congrats on Your RN License ~Ajay!!!!!!!!!! :-)
And on Your "peaceful easy feeling and such happiness" :-)
There's nothing like that feeling :-)
Funny thing is--the feeling of peace inside--never comes easy. Life's ironic--lol :-)
I would love to see Kid in
I would love to see Kid in Evansville. But me and Evansville got a history that ain't good. Kind of like Kid and Nashville or anywhere else he went to jail. I might would go if someone would guarantee they had the bail money to jack me and shit in that state. THEY like to try and break you down. And i need a trustworthy concert accomplice. NO WAY would i go into that state solo. I just don't trust a motherfucker in that state!
ANYBODY game and a happy person that loves KID ROCK for EVANSVLLE. I sure the fuck will never brave that state solo....AND that is fact. ALMOST want Kid Rock himself to guarantee he would bail me out and shit if i went! I am working on a song i had spinning in my head but i was in such a good mood today i didn't work on it. IT is a pissed off love song...can't do it when i am this happy won't turn out right....I KNOW ME,.,...know what i mean!
Congrats Ajay- enjoy your
Congrats Ajay- enjoy your night and your vaca-wish you were on the boat so I could meet ya. You are on a roll! Enjoy the ride!
Life happens RSMS. And we
Life happens RSMS. And we live on..unfortunately. But i will write it as i go. I am listening to Buckcherry Confessions right now as i drink up my Jeremiah's Weed's vodka.....WHO knows i may need a new employer in the a.m. if they ask for B.A.C. LOL! Anyways....KID needs to meet a motherfucker like me as you do too! I will be @ We're all Hall shit. And trust me i been to Tootsies, Bluebird. Let me tell ya...NASHVILLE needs to open up to talent and ppl like me instead of being closed down. I been writing for 20+ years and i got no intent of going anywhere is all i will say! NASHVEGAS will want someone like me sooner or later. Oddly enough my great uncle grew up with Loretta Lynn in Butcher's Holler....SO the legacy lives on....
But hey i been writing for longer then i want to think. I just am getting ready to start bass lessons and writing a short year in the life book....My hear of nursing school. I will shop it when i am done...I gotta say it was a year in insanity for those who never been there!
Yeah me too! Someone from the
TYVM! Yeah me too! Someone from the boat snap me up a solo room when they go on sale for next year would ya?? I am the crazy sort....Well i hope you guys have a great time! I am feeling pretty good right now! Yes i would pay you for getting me the solo room if someone does it, no fear there!
RSMS...i am like you i think music and nursing has saved my soul. I think left to my own devices i would be more then pimp of the nation. I would be a criminal without music and nursing. I have that capacity and i am fully aware of it. Sometimes my intelligence could cause me more grief then i want i and i know it. You can use it for bad or good. Thankfully i am using it for the good...sometimes i honestly feel i am being guided. I pray a lot to make the right choices and do the right thing. Lets hope i keep making the right choices in life. Lord knows where i will be if i don't !