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    That Guy says (23 Dec '09)

    I had to sneak on a PC, probably don't believe me
    My life has been a roller coaster, its trying to deceive me
    or leave me, lose me, I need something to boost me
    Shoot me, nah, you missed me, WTF, who's she?
    Who are they, why now, where the fuck you been
    I am so in love right now, the feelings they begin
    You dont get what Im saying, good, its still soothing
    its better then dosing, dabbling, smoking, or boozing

    She's pregnant, and all I can think is, what the fuck is wrong
    She was my best friend, I loved the girl, but knew it wouldnt last long
    so i didnt even dive in, I didnt invest my time
    now I wish i could help her, but the problem really aint mine
    Yea, this is one of those stories, i really aint gotta explain
    I just think alot about my past, and wonder where I changed
    I used to give a fuck, now I can give a fuck less
    Yeah I stole that line from eminem, if u gonna steal, do it from the best

    One of my best friends in the World, Rocks in a Rock n Roll band
    Some say he's just a DJ, but I think hes the man
    Do you hear the back up vocals, or are you fixated on Bob
    Well those shows are great we all admit, and my boy he does his job
    I see things, hear things, and keep my mouth for the most part shut
    i have to, ya know, but sometimes it just tears at my guts
    Spent the last 8 months watching us put a masterpiece together
    Shot a video today, its gonna be fresh, thank god for Michigan weather
    I know some of you dont give a shit, but I will ask you one more time
    When January rolls around, please help support Paradime
    The Dude is not just a rapper, he is a genius, he is my friend
    and i swear to you, all of you, this album is a win win

    Kelly My friends I am sorry, I have been a way a while
    all the things you have said about me, has left a permanent smile
    And while I cant always muster the words, when push comes to shove
    What we really share, is not hate, but it is love
    I love the way you push me, build me and even back me
    I love the way when I push you back, you bend me over and smack me
    We have been through so much these years, its really like a movie
    but ultimately, no matter what I say, your words they always move me
    So i read your starting over, making moves that may be rough
    But Honey, above all else, you are rough and you are tough
    I know your gonna make it, pass with flying colors
    and if I wasnt locked down, id like one more night under the covers
    Get your minds out of the gutters people, im talking in hidden lingo
    Well maybe i am not, but what matters is that like BINGO
    We hit the winning numbers, we have what it takes
    we are always real with eachother, yep, nothing much to fake

    Angel, I just have to mention you, im running out of time
    I love you so much, your name is so perfect and refined
    Because you are an angel to me, you help me keep living
    And For all the love you give, I pray u always keep giving

    I need it

    I need all my friends, I aint to proud to beg
    But fuck you to the haters, the bitches and the fags
    Fuck you who think Im fake, say it to my face
    you wont, I know, so fuck you again, just in case

    Connie, Ricky, you cruisers have fun please
    I cant even pay for the internet or cable TV
    Life is tough, i will miss you all

    Fuck this, goodnight

    I love JL, MP, and EM

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on Wed, 12/23/2009 - 9:56pm

I had to sneak on a PC, probably don't believe me
My life has been a roller coaster, its trying to deceive me
or leave me, lose me, I need something to boost me
Shoot me, nah, you missed me, WTF, who's she?
Who are they, why now, where the fuck you been
I am so in love right now, the feelings they begin
You dont get what Im saying, good, its still soothing
its better then dosing, dabbling, smoking, or boozing

She's pregnant, and all I can think is, what the fuck is wrong
She was my best friend, I loved the girl, but knew it wouldnt last long
so i didnt even dive in, I didnt invest my time
now I wish i could help her, but the problem really aint mine
Yea, this is one of those stories, i really aint gotta explain
I just think alot about my past, and wonder where I changed
I used to give a fuck, now I can give a fuck less
Yeah I stole that line from eminem, if u gonna steal, do it from the best

One of my best friends in the World, Rocks in a Rock n Roll band
Some say he's just a DJ, but I think hes the man
Do you hear the back up vocals, or are you fixated on Bob
Well those shows are great we all admit, and my boy he does his job
I see things, hear things, and keep my mouth for the most part shut
i have to, ya know, but sometimes it just tears at my guts
Spent the last 8 months watching us put a masterpiece together
Shot a video today, its gonna be fresh, thank god for Michigan weather
I know some of you dont give a shit, but I will ask you one more time
When January rolls around, please help support Paradime
The Dude is not just a rapper, he is a genius, he is my friend
and i swear to you, all of you, this album is a win win

Kelly My friends I am sorry, I have been a way a while
all the things you have said about me, has left a permanent smile
And while I cant always muster the words, when push comes to shove
What we really share, is not hate, but it is love
I love the way you push me, build me and even back me
I love the way when I push you back, you bend me over and smack me
We have been through so much these years, its really like a movie
but ultimately, no matter what I say, your words they always move me
So i read your starting over, making moves that may be rough
But Honey, above all else, you are rough and you are tough
I know your gonna make it, pass with flying colors
and if I wasnt locked down, id like one more night under the covers
Get your minds out of the gutters people, im talking in hidden lingo
Well maybe i am not, but what matters is that like BINGO
We hit the winning numbers, we have what it takes
we are always real with eachother, yep, nothing much to fake

Angel, I just have to mention you, im running out of time
I love you so much, your name is so perfect and refined
Because you are an angel to me, you help me keep living
And For all the love you give, I pray u always keep giving

I need it

I need all my friends, I aint to proud to beg
But fuck you to the haters, the bitches and the fags
Fuck you who think Im fake, say it to my face
you wont, I know, so fuck you again, just in case

Connie, Ricky, you cruisers have fun please
I cant even pay for the internet or cable TV
Life is tough, i will miss you all

Fuck this, goodnight

I love JL, MP, and EM

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ANGELIQUE LACRISSA's picture

what is up my first true loves yea ive been hiding feeling my way through life fuk it just cuz
i have thought of each of you and wondered if you guys were feeling the hard times too
thanks kev i love to come to my secret escape and find that you guys are still here sharing caring
and it really made me feel good to know that you ridin to fl and thought about dropping by the hood just to visit and chat
that is what makes you real and i respect you for that......i support you and hardley know you
but i do know this that some how we all share something in this space that bringsa us together and makes us relate man i missed you guys and everytime i begin to type the phone rings or some crazey shit happpens to drag me away so today im gonna sit here and read fuk the phone maybe that will bring some joy maybe share a storey about my new sex toy hahaaha its homade runs off the generator left over from the last hurricane,, but really i feel ya needing something to feel like a gunshot might do the trick but really i love it when your a dick..and im a trick hahaa can ya.. tell im dry and fuken lack any substance my depth rests on the surface,, I dare not go there its like i shut that part down just breeze through without much confortation
if ya dont have to feel ya cant be disgusted im surrounded by the fuken kardashions not even trying to keep up no depth no substance and frankly not even myself just takin the easy way
i fell ya on lockdown i put myself there just to seem calmed down but why the shut down how do i climb back up and have that giddy fun life loving attitude 24 7 thanks cause i find it here if only for a moment
i love you guys and wish you all welll and i suck at this but i feel ya every damn time

kidrockangel's picture

Belle, You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday

kidrockangel's picture

Kevin, I love you...

Forever and always I have your back

TheGateKeeper™'s picture

You, your daughter and your mom both, will be in my thoughts Theresa : (

Big HUGS to you and I hope the healing time passes quickly for you...I know from experience that it's going to take awhile, but soon you'll see that life will start to fall into place one day and you'll pick yourself up and ride along to wherever it takes you.

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TheGateKeeper™'s picture

Awww thank you Connie : )

I'm already looking forward to the spring and our full fledged winter hasn't even gotten here yet! Once they're planted and start to take bloom...I'll be sure and keep you updated with pictures.

I know that they'll make a beautiful addition to her garden, so thank you for taking the time to not only get them ready...but for taking the time and effort to send them to me : )

Belle Green's picture

Hey you! You know I love you and I don't need to tell ya. Sorry I haven't been around to talk much or to check on you and stuff, I just assumed you were fine. If you need me, if you or your daughter need anything, you know you can count on me for whatever it is. My mom died Oct 26 on Monday and I think I lost Lee too almost at the same time so I'm not in the right frame of mind to give advice or anything like that but I'm here for you and always will be. And I'll help you pump up Dime's CD as much as I can, you know that. I'll even ask my boss if I can post it up as an advertisement at SNM Horror Magazine, (the magazine I'm an editor at) with your permission of course and Dime's permission. But yeah, if you need anything, you of all people know where to find me. And I never thanked you for having my back all those times. Thank you! I hope you know you'll always have my support as well, no matter what.

Connie Jo, Angel, Kelly, and the rest of you peeps, I love you all as well!

Really from Philly (Ryan) I want to collaborate with you and write a song together.

Wish I was going on that cruise I could really use the fun and the outlet and I'd love to se Kracker and Kid again.

Hugs and Much Love, everyone

Hell's Belle

Connie Jo_3's picture

PS: Yes, I hear the background vocals, and yes...I'll buy Dime's CD in January. :)

Sherry J's picture

Wow Kevin, your are one unique individual. When times get tough you stand by your friends. Now thats keeping it real.

Connie Jo_3's picture

Hey Kelly! I got some of my vintage Iris' dug up & cleaned for you, & they're ready to be mailed for your mom's special garden. Now I just gotta get some fresh fudge made, then your package will be off in the mail! Just keep the Iris' in a cool dry place over winter, you can plant them in the Spring when it's warmer. They're winter hardy, will come back each year...divide every 4-5 yrs to keep them blooming, and dividing gives you more to spread around or give away! :)

lorilslaven's picture

Things will work out, just keep pluggin away. Thats your Jersey tip of the day:)

Im looking forward to hearing this upcoming Paradime album that you speak of. Yes, i do have a tendency to become "fixated on Bob" but i can also see what great talent he has around him.
I like the song that you have on your page,'Foul Mouth' the intro is a bit harsh, 'This is Freddie f***ing mug shot" I think Freddie may be scaring people away in the first couple lines of that song! But if your just willing to listen for a little while longer, you start to realize that you are listening to a pretty cool jam! Its got a great beat, it starts grabbin at you after a while (hope that made sense) I look forward to hearing more:)

ps. I just love that Gatekeeper lady, your lucky to have her as a friend :-)

jade-FXD's picture

hay man, I know we don't know squat about each other and I don't know really what you're referring to in the above, but you sure sound like you're in the weeds right now. I hope you're ok, and you have some solid people around you to help out. Hang in there. Life (& people) can suck hard, but you just gotta keep marching through it.

TheGateKeeper™'s picture

Hey Miss Connie...I hope all is well in your world : )

Get yourself off lock down Mr. B and together we can create the biggest B&E reign of terror that leaves it raining enough money to put a smile on our faces for years to come : )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=olFYrLyhGMI

Why? Cuz I'm your bitch ; )~

But in all seriousness, I forgot to add earlier....I hope when the sun came up this morning, that today was better then whatever it was that was going on with you last night.

Connie Jo_3's picture

I'm not even going to bother posting after I did sleep on your post Kevin and give it additional thought. Kelly has said everything I would've said to you, but in her own unique way differing from mine...still, said in differing ways my thoughts are one in the same. So ditto what Kelly said...I'm always here too, always will be for a friend I hold in my heart, and would give just about anything to help those I love...if only, ya know?

I'm not gonna ditto Kelly and call you a "big fucking asshole" though, that is an aka Kevin name Kelly has a non spoken trademark on, reserved for her privelaged use only, respectively so...and I wouldn't dare impose upon such. :)

Love you for life Kevin...honorably & respectively so.

TheGateKeeper™'s picture

Why must I always feel the need to be stoned to respond to you?

Sad to say but it's way too early in the day for that kinda nonsense, so here's the non-novel writing, email sending, pm manifesting, un-smoke-ified......me, at your service.

You send me signals you know? I know when things aren't just right with you. I could call and ask "what's up?" but I've learned that you'll figure it out on your own, because it's just the way you are. If I were to call and ask "what's up?" you'd simply laugh and say that all was well in your world...even though as the conversation came to an end, I would know that you weren't being all that truthful with me...or yourself. But even though these things aren't some breaking news bulletin to me, I know....you'll get through whatever it is that may be going on.

I also know, that if there were ever a time that you needed me...you would find me.

~Like @ 8am after walking out the front door of Ford Motor Company~

Anyway, you're going to have an email, sometime within the next 24hrs. Cause it's class time, I'm the teacher and now is not the time for me to preach...but to teach. Your first lesson will be in the art of communication...without it all you're going to do is fight the never ending battle inside your head.

Yes I'm happy for you.
Yes I want nothing but the best for you.
Yes I know you've got the capability for greatness in your life.
Yes I know you're trying everything you can to achieve these things.
And yes, I know that you will one day be exactly where you want to be.
But one thing I cannot stress enough, that I need you to know is...

Time can pass, lives can take drastic turns, someone else can step up to the plate and maybe they're gonna stay there for good...but in the chaos that is life, one things for certain....I'm not going anywhere.

I'm here, there or wherever it may be...which in your case is always just a phone call away.

Now please, knock the shit off, shake it off and move on....does th

Christy_41's picture

Hey Kevin,
You are real to the core.I feel that..It is tuff shit going down expesially in youre home town.
We feel it down here too,It will get better you will rise up better than ever I am so sorry times are hard.Keep keep'n it real you make so many in here smile I guess we should be more vocal about it :)
Peace,Love,Rock and Roll...." I took that one from Sherz"..lol

BRENDA_88's picture

Kevin i think u r a alright guy ur up front and real and i like that in my friends... i hate people who lie, cheat and steal... yes times r tough right now but from what i read and hear ur one tough guy and special to a few people.. so keep it real and life will get better... MICHIGAN is our home state and we will make a come back some how...take care my friend....

Connie Jo_3's picture

Hey you...I'm gonna give your post tonight additional thought, after I've rested my own weary mind. I've known you too many years Kevin, and can read between the lines clearly. We're all gonna bounce back Kevin...this special unique family of ours who've been beat down one way or another, are struggling in some way...you, Dime, Kelly, me, Dillon, others...we're gonna be okay, all of us, just gonna take some time.

BTW...I haven't heard any updates...is Dime all recovered from his tonsil surgery?

In case you hadn't heard...Ricky campaigned for his local School Board, and was the candidate receiving the most votes...Romeo is on a school board now! Go figure, hahaha.

Good night my dear friend, love ya.