Yesterday as I waited for my 12 year old son outside a grocery store I looked at an ashtray full of nasty butts! I thought to myself that I had not even had the thought all day of smoking! I now have 30 days of being clean!
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My addictions many! I smoked cigs for 30 years, smoked pot since the 7th grade in South Carolina, (I'm 48 now) drank till black out drunk on occassion, gambled aways millions while chasing lot's of strippers! I had beat my addictions to harder drugs earlier on and had earlier in life been addicted to cocaine and acid/shrooms. I was at one time going to be the next James Douglas Morrison.
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On a drunk once in Hawaii at the Hilton with my wife and our girlfriend Cathy it was reported that I was so drunk I was diving into the superpool while yelling at the top of my lungs "I'm James Douglas Fucking Morrison" "I am the Lizard Kind I can do anything"
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That was just a few short years ago. I do miss Cathy....hot latin and irish mix who did bicram yoga three times a week. But I made a mistake and fell in love and Momma said she had to go! Life is different now for sure. Better! Yes it's easy to say "you had your good time" but now that that part of my life is over.....where are all the good friends I had....I'm challanged to find them!
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So today I give this Gift to you! If a broken down wretch like me can drop all my bad habits in one day and just walk away.....so can anyone else! Financially I'm as beat up as can be, all the friends and family who were there for years of party and good times...turned their backs on us as soon as the money dried up....we are living in a one room motel with my wife and three sons....my oldest son is sleeping on an airmattress on the floor and Billy and Michael share a twin bed and so do my wife and I....if it wasn't for some Great Christians we would be "Under the Bridge" so I know about hardship too. That's where I got better! It's made me see and I am no longer blind but thirst for knowledge and of the things in life that can not be bought!
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Reach out to Your Higher Power...Your God and Pray and Your Prayers Will be answered! write me anytime phoenixcoin@yahoo.com I'm here for you.
Wow! I'm at a loss for words.
Wow! I'm at a loss for words. Very happy, and proud for you. Ditto to what Val said! Your journey has just begun. The fact you can find thanks puts you leaps and bounds above those, "woe is me", "poor me" people. Enjoy the ride, man.
Thanks K8!!! Attitude is
Thanks K8!!! Attitude is everything for sure. I do know sometimes it's hard to keep a good one. Hard to keep the Faith when your hours from the streets with no money, food, transportation, hope and with a wife and three kids. But add in a few Great Christians and a strong faith in God and that changed quickly. I'm not Mormon but The Church of Jesus Christ and Latter Day Saints came and saved us right at the time we hit bottom! I owe them so much even though they ask for nothing in return but to pay it forward. Today I have my second interview and am very positive to have a great job at a Cadillac dealership! We have returned to our chosen religion and things are great!!! Faith and Attitude are Everything!!! Peace....
Good news, James. So proud
Good news, James. So proud of you, just keep going......you can do it.
Thanks Blue it seems to be
Thanks Blue it seems to be getting easier. The real test of oourse will come when I have the money to afford the bad habits. I think it's a littl easier now that we are struggling financially. I have tried to quite in the past but most of the times would break down in hours. Also prayin for a good test as I think the Cadillac Dealer is going to hire e tomorrow after my second interview. Drinking lots of water even thought it's been 30 I know it can take longer. Peace!!!
Duke, this is the chance to
Duke, this is the chance to get rid of all the clutter in your life...those so-called friends and absent relatives never were worth much if they ain't around now...their true colors were shown...plus, you don't want those kind of friends now anyway. ..find better, higher quality ones...surround yourself and your family with good people...it is painful, but will be best in the long run. You don't really have much in common with those old friends now ...they will be a bad influence and make your journey harder. You seem to have an outgoing personality, so I'm sure that will not be a prob!
Congrats on the 30 day mark...take it one day at a time, and I bet that you and your family look back on this time as a treasured memory of sticking together.. the times I was the most broke and couldn't rub 2 nickels together were sometimes the best..don't know how, but it sure is true...
Thank You these some of the
Thank You these some of the best times for sure. While it's never easy to have people that you thought were your friends turn their backs your absolutely right! They have shown their true colors and are not worth any thought! Ever watch the movie The Ulitmate Gift? We just watched it an I could so relate. Peace out! One day at a time!
Interesting. Life can be
Interesting. Life can be crazy @ times. If you truly wanna stay cleaned up it is possible. I would say the best way to accomplish that is one day @ a time. And you will be challenged @ times, usually @ your weakest times. I am sure you realize that though. Just roll with the good and bad and remember where you been. Then think about where you wanna be and what need to do to get there. I am sure getting anywhere doesn't involve drugs or alcohol unless you wanna be fucked up!
Congrats on cleaning up. Even a day is an accomplishment! I would remember that if i was you. 30 days is a helluva a start to build on. If nothing else think of the money you are saving that can help you and your family get back on your feet.
You got that right. Besides
You got that right. Besides the last black out drunk at the Venetian when I left in a limo with two strange women, went to Crazyhorse, had the limo come back and pick me up 20 minutes later, driver having to come in and pull me out of the girls rest room only to wake the next morning not remembring any of it.....the expense was big part of me quiting. Funny thing is we sank a little lower financially after I quite even with the savings. Things are on upswing and I interviewed at a Cadillac today and I'm 99.9999 percent sure I have the job. They are having me back tomorrow to meet the GM. Wish me luck. Those reps make bank!
I commend you with your
I commend you with your sobriety and am behind you 100% although I thought you were sixty and bald,..You are fearfully and wounderfuly made and can do anything through hyme and prayer,.that is truth I wittness and practice it everyday,..on my 17th birthday my dad gave me a 100 dollor bill and my sister one as well for we have the same bithday yet are 1 year apart,.he his new wife and my youngest brother, sister and me were living/staying in a motel six, my dad was 41 at the time,.and had just lost it all,.no,.he gave it all away and wanted a freash start,..he'll work till the day hes dies but I must say,.hes doing just fine. My point,.Im not sure other than I can say through that exsperanice it was life as it is still to this day and were happy and gave no thought of our sistuation...thank you I just remebered that,.xoxoxo Roll On Brother
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Thanks baby doll!!! Interview
Thanks baby doll!!! Interview with Cadillac went very good! I go back tomorrow to meet GM.
Way to go,.Im happy for you
Way to go,.Im happy for you and yours,.xoxoxo