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    Lisajonescollins says (09 Mar '12)

    My heart is so full of Pain 

    Thanks Bobby, You brougth me threw so many painful events this past year.

     

    I traveled from Gulfport Ms to see you perform....Needless to say once I got back to Gulfport My life changed, I think my soon to be ex husband realized he lost the contorl over me..Because I actually left to come see you...He tried anyway he could to stop me but i wouldn't let him stop me from coming to Houstont to see you .. I spent many lonely nights at my computer reading and listening to your music...getting lost away from the pain I was feeling from the hours of abuse I went through on a daily bases...

    I got home Thursday Night,  March 1st and boy did I pay, I caught Hell...Needless say I left with Nothing, I hadn't unpacked my car from the trip, so my suitcase was still in the Trunk..He threw it out on the ground and told me to leave..I left everything, my Car,My home and all my belongs....

    My daughter, and Grand daughter saw all this take place, So we left in her car and drove back to Texas...Now, I'm staying with my aunt and my 93 year old grandmother...trying to figure out what to do next...Kind of hard with no car, no money he had this all planned, because our checking account had 10 dollars in it...Our saving drained also..he was making sure that I had nothing..Thought He could keep me there If I had nothing..

     

    where am i to go now that i have lost everything,
    nothing will ever be the same im stuck here configuring.
    i look out the windowi see the beautiful night sky,
    i wish i had wings i would jump out and learn to fly.
    ill fly away from this ugly world and place,
    no one could capture me i would be a free soul without a cage.
    i want to be free, freedom makes my heart race.
    i would fly high above this world doing everything at my own pace.
    for i am now a free soul without a home to tie me down,
    ill do everything i ever wanted and i will never be found.
    noone will miss me but its alright i dont want these chains,
    there binding me down i try to struggle all i feel is pain.
    one day i will sprought my beautiful wings,
    i will fly away to never be found. 

     

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Submitted by Lisajonescollins
on Fri, 03/09/2012 - 11:49am

My heart is so full of Pain 

Thanks Bobby, You brougth me threw so many painful events this past year.

 

I traveled from Gulfport Ms to see you perform....Needless to say once I got back to Gulfport My life changed, I think my soon to be ex husband realized he lost the contorl over me..Because I actually left to come see you...He tried anyway he could to stop me but i wouldn't let him stop me from coming to Houstont to see you .. I spent many lonely nights at my computer reading and listening to your music...getting lost away from the pain I was feeling from the hours of abuse I went through on a daily bases...

I got home Thursday Night,  March 1st and boy did I pay, I caught Hell...Needless say I left with Nothing, I hadn't unpacked my car from the trip, so my suitcase was still in the Trunk..He threw it out on the ground and told me to leave..I left everything, my Car,My home and all my belongs....

My daughter, and Grand daughter saw all this take place, So we left in her car and drove back to Texas...Now, I'm staying with my aunt and my 93 year old grandmother...trying to figure out what to do next...Kind of hard with no car, no money he had this all planned, because our checking account had 10 dollars in it...Our saving drained also..he was making sure that I had nothing..Thought He could keep me there If I had nothing..

 

where am i to go now that i have lost everything,
nothing will ever be the same im stuck here configuring.
i look out the windowi see the beautiful night sky,
i wish i had wings i would jump out and learn to fly.
ill fly away from this ugly world and place,
no one could capture me i would be a free soul without a cage.
i want to be free, freedom makes my heart race.
i would fly high above this world doing everything at my own pace.
for i am now a free soul without a home to tie me down,
ill do everything i ever wanted and i will never be found.
noone will miss me but its alright i dont want these chains,
there binding me down i try to struggle all i feel is pain.
one day i will sprought my beautiful wings,
i will fly away to never be found. 

 

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Lisajonescollins's picture

Mon, 03/12/2012 - 8:45am — Lisajonescollins

thks ya'll for the words....IT's been hard but i'm back home from where I from and lots of family and friends.....

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Sun, 03/11/2012 - 9:04pm — KRSVal

Lisa, it sounds like you still have your daughter, grandbaby, Aunt, and Granny. You have a place to lay your head with ppl who love you. All you lost is the 190 lb. sack of doggie doo who treated you bad! (sorry)
Have you ever waited tables? That is a way to get $ quick with tips. It will make you feel better financially, anyway. I know change is hard, but it does get easier with each passing day. Plus your confidence will come back, mark my words.

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Sun, 03/11/2012 - 3:04pm — MsBehavin

Whatever you do--Lisa--- DO NOT GO BACK TO THAT ASSHOLE-----and mark my words-----he's going to try----I've been there------
DO NOT go back

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Fri, 03/09/2012 - 9:26pm — Laura_28

Sorry to hear that you are having such a rough go of it.....Sometimes life sucks, but the bad times pass just like the good ones do. Hang in there and find the life you deserve.