We were at the Tigers game tonight as the no hitter was happening, I never mentioned it, neither did my son or husband, we know better, but someone didn't cuz Anibal Sanchez pitched an unbelievable game tonight, and was robbed of the no hitter with 2 outs to go in the top of the ninth, by no less than Joe Mauer. UGH, but brilliant pitching by Sanchez. FYI for the baseball newbies, NEVER MENTION NO HITTER WHILE A NO HITTER IS HAPPENING!!! I don't buy into jinxes but I buy into this one.
On Christmas day, it seems I blew the engine on my car. I will be unloading my Kid Rock collectibles, Paradime Collectibles, and TBT Collectibles. My Car is going to cost me 3 Grand to repair, and I need all the funds I can to make sure I have a vehicle. So, in the upcoming days, be ready to bid, donate, and help a cause much greater then u may think. I am also organizing a benefit show...
Happy Trails
I got one fer ya-- I woke up from a dream a Devil without a cause had a dream of a black chick ,white guy in the background i heard the Party Ode.Today im feeling like a Gangster from the Oldschool.
There's no reason to work for the man in this wonderful country of ours. Just met with my husbands , now my business partner to go over the details of the new company . He and my spouse ave been working on patents for sometime and he's has quite a few and other ventures and seeing how he has some free time now we decided upon our venture of passive income bringing in about 15 g a day to start. I'm gonna be busy doing the marketing portion since I have all the contacts until it gets going and off the ground and then well, fishing, writing a few songs.
Should have stayed in bed
Red lights, ass wipes
Fat people walking around
With clothes too tight
ATM fees that just aint right
Rents too high, I don’t know why
Everywhere I go they buy and buy
I said Goddamn
I should of stayed in bed
Something wrong with my head
I should of stayed in bed
Scratch off winners
Mini thinners
Too many choices TV dinners
Fake laughing, traffic
Ex wife’s spastic
Head case spinning,
Go home to your basket
I said Goddamn
I shoulda stayed in bed
Something wrong with my head
I shoulda stayed in bed
Over worked, go a boss that’s a jerk
Everywhere I go, there’s twerps
I just wanted to share. For me, everything is so good right now. Not ideal, but good. I seem to have a whole new outlook on life in general and I think for the first time in the last, too many years to count, Im actually happy. Not sure why because nothing has really changed for me personally.
I think it started when I reached the breaking point with my baby sister and was finally able to break the feeling of being responsible and needing to be there. As the oldest of four, when my parents divorced (we were 12, 9, 4 & 1) I sort of became an instant surrogate mother and apparently took that responsibility to heart and wrapped my whole life around being there and doing what I could. With both of my sisters being single parents, I think I then transferred my sense of responsibility to them and being there and doing the extra things, for the boys, that their mothers were unable to. However, with my baby sister and her youngest (by then I had accepted the fact I would never have a child of my own) one I think I went too far in the being there and she just plain took advantage of my willingness to help out. It took 10 years but I finally reached the breaking point. After blowing up at her and informing her I had nothing left to give, my outlook began to change because I began to shed that feeling of being responsible and needing to be there. Since shedding that feeling I also dont seem to be as angry with her all the time. I wont go into everything, but she is truly a baby of the family with ALL the negative aspects of that title.
I think another part is the family, as a whole, finally getting through the grief process. Starting in 2004, it seemed we had a death in the family every 6 to 10 months (a beloved uncle - 2004, my grandmother -2004, a close cousin - 2005, my daddy - Thanksgiving time 2006 and then my sister Oct 2007). They just seemed to pile up faster than we could get through the grief process. This really was the best Christmas in three years. Mom was actually interested in decorating and seemed to enjoy it for the first time since 07.
There are other reasons I think my outlook changed, but those really are the two biggest ones. It really is nice to finally not feel responsible for things in the life of my sister and nephews. I think for the first time in over two decades my life really is all about me. Since Im single and have no children Im okay with that as it will not take away from someone else.
For me, this is going to be a very good year. At least I dont have any other negative aspects or all the anger I used to have to complicate or add to anything bad should it occur this year.
Anyway, I just felt like I wanted to share which is rare thing for me as I generally tend to be a VERY private person. I guess I feel safe here.
I just wanted to share. For me, everything is so good right now. Not ideal, but good. I seem to have a whole new outlook on life in general and I think for the first time in the last, too many years to count, Im actually happy. Not sure why because nothing has really changed for me personally.
I think it started when I reached the breaking point with my baby sister and was finally able to break the feeling of being responsible and needing to be there. As the oldest of four, when my parents divorced (we were 12, 9, 4 & 1) I sort of became an instant surrogate mother and apparently took that responsibility to heart and wrapped my whole life around being there and doing what I could. With both of my sisters being single parents, I think I then transferred my sense of responsibility to them and being there and doing the extra things, for the boys, that their mothers were unable to. However, with my baby sister and her youngest (by then I had accepted the fact I would never have a child of my own) one I think I went too far in the being there and she just plain took advantage of my willingness to help out. It took 10 years but I finally reached the breaking point. After blowing up at her and informing her I had nothing left to give, my outlook began to change because I began to shed that feeling of being responsible and needing to be there. Since shedding that feeling I also dont seem to be as angry with her all the time. I wont go into everything, but she is truly a baby of the family with ALL the negative aspects of that title.
I think another part is the family, as a whole, finally getting through the grief process. Starting in 2004, it seemed we had a death in the family every 6 to 10 months (a beloved uncle - 2004, my grandmother -2004, a close cousin - 2005, my daddy - Thanksgiving time 2006 and then my sister Oct 2007). They just seemed to pile up faster than we could get through the grief process. This really was the best Christmas in three years. Mom was actually interested in decorating and seemed to enjoy it for the first time since 07.
There are other reasons I think my outlook changed, but those really are the two biggest ones. It really is nice to finally not feel responsible for things in the life of my sister and nephews. I think for the first time in over two decades my life really is all about me. Since Im single and have no children Im okay with that as it will not take away from someone else.
For me, this is going to be a very good year. At least I dont have any other negative aspects or all the anger I used to have to complicate or add to anything bad should it occur this year.
Anyway, I just felt like I wanted to share which is rare thing for me as I generally tend to be a VERY private person. I guess I feel safe here.
Well, with interacting on line with you for several months...I've no doubt you are a postive influence in your nephews lives. Your sister and your nephews are blessed, and hopefully they realize that. If not, they will someday...promise, I've been there and done that with those I'm grateful to from my childhood. I honestly believe that had it not been for those extended relatives...I wouldn't have survived successfully in the way I did.
My grandma and Aunt Josephine passed away prior to my younger brother and sister having the advantage of time to benefit from them as I did, with my being the oldest...and I believe that made the difference in the choices they made compared to those I did as an adult...that took them on negative life paths.
I worry about my grandkids so much...more than I did my own kids when they were growing up. With each generation more and more risks surface for children. It's a very scary world out there, no doubt about it. :(
You've got that right about the negative influences in society and kids need all the positive role models they can have.
I can only hope that what I've been able to do and demonstrate to this point in the youngest's life will have some affect when he is fully grown. His "Dad" has been a good role model as well and hopefully he will follow more in his footsteps than his mom's and brother's footsteps.
My sisters oldest two (20 & 19) have no respect for their mother and I definitely see the youngest following in their footsteps in that respect. I just hope the youngest sees all the oldest two have gone through as a result of never attending school and other issues and makes wiser decisions.
Yeah, I can relate Mimi.
I tried so hard to be a positive influence in my younger brother and sister's live, including bringing them both to live with us years ago, when mom didn't want them interferring with her new life, new husband, etc.. They were only 13 & 14...such impressionable ages. My brother survived somewhat, though held much resentment for our mom until the day he died. He tolerated her when she was around, but had no respect for her. My sister is still a mess emotionally, and in lifestyle...as a result of feeling un-wanted by her mom.
My mom is still very self absorbed, a 'baby' personality as you say...but she does try to involve herself more in the lives of me, my other brother, and half sister Becky. She has nothing to do with my sister Kelly, still treats her badly.
I try now to be a positive influence as much as possible on my grandkids. My daughter is a great mom, but there are so many negative influences in society these days...and grand-parents can play a major role with positive influence...parents need all the help they can get these days. I lived with my grandma until I was 6, and she continued to play a positive role in my life until her death, I was 11 then. Her sister, my gr-aunt Josephine, also was a positive influence in my life. I know from experience that relatives can make a positive difference, even though they're not with the kids 24/7.
That's all we can do...pray, and try to be a positive influence as much as possible when around the kids, and from the outside looking in so to speak. It works! :)
Thanks Connie. It is a process and you will reach that point. Just continue praying for God's guidance and help.
Self-absorbed parent describes my sister to a tee and was the primary factor in why it took me so long to reach this point with her. Although, I knew it in my head, I had to finally accept it in my heart, that ultimately there is nothing I can do for my nephews, except pray for them and demonstrate more positive adult behavior when around them, that will change the way they turn out as a direct result of the way their mother raises/ed them. I think if my other sister hadn't been around to deal with some of the baby sisters issues for so long I would have reached this point long before the last one was even born 11 years ago. I'm sure Mom and I have no clue as to how much my other sister dealt with, since they lived so close together. It just seemed for the past three years I had just been getting angrier and angrier until I reached the breaking point. It just feels so good to be happy again instead of angry most of the time.
I thoroughly enjoyed reading this Mimi, it made me smile. :)
I can relate to many tragic life changes within a short time period, including the loss of my baby brother in 2008. We so far have a loss every year, rather than every 6-10 months. I know she wasn't a person, but she was a person to me...the most recent loss being my Miss Lily, yesterday. It's so strange not having her here to care for now. I miss her so very much. I feel guilty too, that I wasn't able to 'save her'.
I can also relate to the feeling of serenity that comes with not having to feel responsible any longer for those whose personalities aren't as responsible and relied upon me to be the 'grown up'. I too was the oldest of four, but had a parent who was extremely self absorbed, of which never parented...as a result I ended up taking care of my younger siblings throughout life...the parent too, haha. Then of course there was the caring for an immature and irresponsible spouse from 2007 on, my adult kids, grandkids, dogs, and even close friends. An awful lot for one person...isn't it? :)
Life has become more about me in some ways, but I'm not to the point you are...yet. I hope to be someday, but for now...I take it one day at a time moving forward as positively as possible, praying for God's guidance.
I hope those in my family I've declared 'enough is enough' will adjust as yours have, because so far they have not handled it so well, haha.
God bless you and yours Mimi...and thanks for sharing, bringing a smile to my face. You give me hope I may reach the point you have someday. :)
Thats awesome Girl and I can relate to feeling responsible. WTG