Live from the Artists Den: Kid Rock - "Rock N Roll Jesus"

I’m ok. My sister is awesome and really helped me. We decided I’ll be showing up on her doorstep shortly and it felt great to say “I’ll see you soon.” I have calls to make tomorrow (my uncle included) and get things going. Hearing your ROCK ON tonight a couple of times helped immensely. Thank you, my sweet. She said I can’t blame him for my being unhappy where I’m at, which is true. She is wise. I can’t change him but I don’t live this way. I’m working through my anger & it’s almost gone. Soon I will be, too. Maybe this is Him knocking me over my head to move it. I’m going to contact a few WI friends so maybe I can earn money with some legal writing. I love to write and research…did you know that about me? Q saw Rachel show up. He just invited me to a party so I’m going to head out for a while and spend some time with friends. I don’t know how late I’ll be…I’m sorry…but I’ll still say my good nights later. I can’t do it now. It’s too early for me. Please forgive me…I don’t want to take advantage of the fact you may be up late. I’ve never want to take advantage of that or of you, my friend. I love you and this really is turning out to be a Wonderful Wednesday. I’ll talk with you soon, my love. Be safe and smile, please, for me. The thought right now brings tears to my eyes and a smile to my face. Be happy, my Beloved.

My brother and I are doing well, re-adjusting and we played some music this morning. It’s different now with all we have each learned in the last month, but it’s good. We both are in a bit of disbelief that he is at 318 and we can enjoy our friendship. He’s out doing a few things on his motorcycle…I’m so happy for him. I’m off to Super 1 for milk & additional juicing supplies (romaine & apples). I’ll be working on the house but I also think we’ll take a South Bell walk around 4ish, too. I still want to post some comments on your posts about the other things you’ve been doing so I’m trying to gather my thoughts, but I’m a bit completely distracted by you now so I’ll work on them for another time, plus I love giving others a chance to post and say good things about you which I love to read. They make my heart happy. You make my heart very, very, very, very, very, very happy. I love you, my friend, my Beloved. I’ll talk to you soon. Sending you hugs, smiles, kisses, & high fives :)

Happy Wonderful Wednesday, RJR!!! I wish for you a peaceful heart as you experience what this day holds for you. I wish for you laughter, smiles, hugs, friends, family, good colleagues, your superb artistry flowing out of you…so many good and wonderful things I wish for you. I hope when you look at the sky you see its beauty as His ever-changing painting created to show you His love. Were you able to sleep well last night, sweetheart, and to awake rested, firm in His love? Did you piss off you know who by putting your feet on the ground? Way to go!!!!! Me, too!!!! Ummm, please excuse me for a moment, because although someone else happened to believe inputting new DVDs was more important so I didn’t think it would be today, Donna, who’s not working today, but just stopped in, checked for me…wait for it, wait for it (yes, I did)…she comes walking back to my table while I’m talking to you with a treasure above all treasures in her hand!!!!!!!! Double big hugs all the way around! Jumping and dancing!!! But, before I could touch it, she told me she had to break the rules to give it to me, because from the time she had originally input it, to the time she switched computer screens to put my hold on it, someone from Missoula put a hold on it. She’s never done it before but she overrode it & I have it for a month!!!!!! Yippee!!!!!!!!! I told her it was good that someone else wanted it right away, too, but we agreed they could wait because I’ve never asked for anything like this in all my years here. Plus, I told her, Missoula could get their own flippin’ copy, too! Ok, I can’t type anymore right now because I started to open up the paper insert whatever you call it I’m too excited to think of the real words, but I wanted to wish you a happy day, my Angel first (priorities), but I really gotta go for a bit because I can’t resist or concentrate!!!!! Please forgive me? Oh, thank you, what a wonderful Wednesday!!!! I love you my love!!!!!

My brother is home. I am tired from the days’ events, but I feel his calm and it is promising. I am also given the opportunity to maintain my ROCK ON status. I don’t know how it’ll all look for so much keeps changing each day, but I am optimistic, and will continue to speak honestly, openly, and truthfully with you, my love. I miss you. Thank you for being with me tonight. Oh, by the way, nice new t-shirts :) I love both, because it is true you can’t buy cool & your This Is Not A Tour Tour T-shirt brings a special smile to my face, for it has the villes we talked about and shared. The glass is something Q collects so someday I’d like to get him one as a thank you for his friendship. I hope sales go great for you. Speaking of which, I am hopeful your Library CD comes tomorrow :) I read the beginning of the Lynyrd Skynyrd book and it brings tears to my eyes. It is written by Ronnie Van Zant’s bodyguard. I’m mesmerized. Thank you for inspiring and educating me.

I’ve been praying a lot, for a lot of guidance, for the best for those I love…and I begged Him today for help. I was settling down for a quick cat nap when the bail bondsman called. There’s a bit of confusion, but it’s possible SRTW could be home tonight until his hearing next Thursday (30th); that is, if everybody has their ducks in a row & they don’t turn around & pick him up the minute I get him to 318. I’ll know more in a few minutes. While it’s $540 I have, but don’t, him being able to deal with his things & getting to spend a little time with him as I ROCK ON I suspect may be His guidance. If they can immediately pick him up, then it’s money down the drain & I can’t do it; if he is left alone for this next week, he can get a lot done & he’s already asked his brothers for help so we could still get bills paid. A lot of people will have a lot of opinions, but I’ve seen his heart & watched his actions. A week out will tell even more. He’s been there for weeks not knowing a thing, so to give him a bit of freedom, to have the opportunity to practice outside his changing ways, to see Sonya romp in the water, for him, for his heart, I want to try. I’ve stood by his side for 8 years & although it is time for me to ROCK ON, I want to do it in good form. For my part, his being out will support my healthy habits and help me with letting go of the cigs & being so lonely I have found I more often than I want find solace at the Brew. The last few days I’ve been thinking about it & I don’t mind the occasional drink, but it’s really not my passion. I did fine for 5 years without. I don’t judge it or myself; I’ve had fun, but I’m having more fun doing other things so it’s time to let a few more things go. I’ve learned my lesson not to say never, but I need & want to address my own health & fun (and for the past few days, I’ve consciously reflected on it not being as much fun anymore). Thanks for listening, my friend. I may be wrong, but I can’t help but try for my brother.