Live from the Artists Den: Kid Rock - "Rock N Roll Jesus"

Big G literally led me last night. I took off on my Bianchi to talk to you, seeing a sealed envelope in the middle of the street. You know me & litter :) so I thought I’d get it when I come back. I was almost to my 42 years married couple’s house & there was another so I thought OK Big G & stopped. It was my bubble gum neighbor’s mail. I’ve been praying for him & was thinking of checking in on his mother whom he takes care of & his friends who seemed to be helping her out. After my talk with you last night, T (18 year old former student I know better & have repeatedly seen his faithful heart) drove by & said hi as he usually does. He went 1 way up our 7th & 8th Streets horseshoe, while I went the other. I thought, aha, maybe I can give him the mail I found instead of waiting until today. T & bubble gum’s friend (L) who was in the car & had guns drawn on her, too, stood talking with me for I don’t know how long last night. I know when I am in the presence of strongly spiritually connected individuals. While bubble gum has his demons he wrestles with, L (who has known him for 8 years) unequivocally said the allegations are false. She encouraged him in his spiritual journey & to face the cop cars instead of pulling back out. We shared many hugs & I found out today, T is not a hugger, but you can’t convince me of that anymore, for his final hug was solid & true…he didn’t want to let go. He is a fine young man & this has rocked his world, but he has known bubble gum since he was 12 & spent a lot of time with him over the years. His single mother, brother & he just moved back from Missoula & he’s been living with bubble gum, helping him before he heads to university this fall. He’s been a great protector of the house which has been necessary based upon denial mother & son’s actions. L has helped to keep the house running & both of them spent the last few days cleaning up after the cops had torn everything apart & left behind their pizza boxes & other refuse (Bad Form).

I’ve had a great day, feeling positive & getting a lot accomplished. I’m at the Brewery now because Winky’s was closed. Good timing because I have a massive headache & TN ‘toothache’ feel. My combined scopes are: “Your thinking is clear today & you'll find that it's right in sync with who you are, Libra. Find your strength in conversations in which you display your keen insight into the situation at hand. Your detective-like nature is especially active, & others will find it hard to pull the wool over your eyes now. Stay tuned in to what's going on around you. You have a very responsible way with responsibility, & are obviously good at handling it. Today your responsibility is to yourself. You need to raise the level of your self-esteem, & make a few wise choices. What has happened recently may have knocked you down a peg or two, but today you need to start the process of putting yourself back on the upswing. Life is for living. A hostile attitude is likely to have quite a negative effect on you today if you’re not careful. Your sensitive nature is not fully equipped to deal with the bombardment from the people around you. Wear a suit of armor today.” It explains a lot of this afternoon. I received my roommate’s P.O. call with his recommendation being 60-90 day treatment, but the judge can do whatever he feels. Ravalli County… :) His hearing isn’t likely until next week so no Hami Wednesday. I’ll have the sale this week & see Steve Sunday; he’ll understand. He feels horrible about the lurch he feels he put me & Sonya in. I said not to worry; we’d been through tougher times so to focus on him & his healing. His friend (gills woman’s boyfriend) came by to use my phone but I politely asked him to not come by if he’d been drinking (I could feel his anger). It was a delicate discussion, but I told him all I was dealing with & so I couldn’t add more to it. He understood. (1 Summerfest; on 1 Panty). Can’t hold me down; I’m still positive :) And Angel DG G is on her way :)

Happy Mighty Monday, RJR!!! How is your day going? Busy, creative, productive I would hazard to guess. I hope it is good, too & I’m imagining your smile right now. You make me smile, too. As you know, He guides me, thus I worked on the one thing I didn’t want to do…the garage sale. I got a lot done this morning before I shut the garage doors to stave off the heat. As I worked, I felt good & confident because I WOKE UP IN LOVE with thoughts of cruising BACKROADS, alone, JUST YOU AND I. I don’t know if you’re LEAVING LOUISIANA IN THE BROAD DAYLIGHT, but WHENEVER YOU COME AROUND, I’ll be happy to have finally met you face to face, so I can say HEY BOBBY, wanna dance to a little HILLBILLY ROCK ‘cuz I have on my TIGHT FITTIN’ JEANS and I need you to be my COWBOY. I know it’s a LEAP OF FAITH, but THE HEART WON’T LIE for your LOVE PUT A SONG IN MY HEART. I want to wake up to you so I may KISS AN ANGEL GOOD MORNING.

I realized I didn’t finish my sentence about the river in my last post…I guess I got too excited thinking about you…go figure :) Well, as I was saying, the river was beautiful & I enjoyed hearing it. I love the soothing sound of flowing water. My walk was also beautiful seeing the newly gathered round hay bales & waving to people who called my name (but a few I didn’t know for they drove by too fast for me to put into my head who they were), but it was a great day in the ville nonetheless. Sonya is a great dog & the leash training is mostly for other people as we stroll through town so they don’t feel scared seeing a G-shep off leash. She had her freedom most of the way home, even through town, though, because she’s so good at checking in & staying close anyways. When she was young, she was in a neighbor’s field playing in the water (I should have known) but that was the first time she didn’t come when I called her so I went to where she was, picked her up, carried her to the yard, telling her to come when she was asked & then set her down. She’s come when called ever since. Hey, the tube-top-tan-balancing worked! My left side is blended & the right is pretty close once I realized on my walk I could shift the placement of my backpack strap. My meatloaf turned out pretty good & while I put some red pepper in it, I think it could use a bit more. The potatoes & carrots were perfectly delicious! I used to not like cooked carrots until my Upstairs Downstairs Deli days (hostess, assistant manager, etc.) when I tried their fresh cooked carrots…yummy! Brussel sprouts are a whole different issue. In all your travels, have you ever had any good, let alone yummy, brussel sprouts? I’d be interested in knowing if they exist. I fell asleep probably because of all the sun I got being out for almost 3 hours & then Clarissa called so we talked for about 1 ½ hours. Long Norwegian woman conversations are a thing to behold :) I hope you’ve had a beautiful, fun, & relaxing day, RJR.

Yeah the devil’s very pissed I put my feet on the ground this morning! :) I guess I told him “nice try, but suck it!” :) The walk is doing me good, along with the sunshine & my green tube top. I will hang at the house today. I only want to be with me, you, Sonya, & Him. Possible green sweater delivery today, with His blessing, & I have 5 Dumptrucks still in case I’d like one later. Rachel came by to get her stuff, but I left before she came; however, she just found me here at the Library bench saying she left some books for Steve to read, but I asked her nicely to go get them because I have to pack everything & I’d rather not add to it. Before I learned of my neighbor’s transgressions yesterday, God gave me a site for sore eyes…one of my favorite teachers from my school days & one of my favorite human beings on this planet. He said “You’re half the woman you used to be!” & we both laughed at the physical truth of his words. He is a good man, sweet, & has a lovely family. He was getting ice for his daughter was getting married & they were celebrating. God knows so well how to balance heart break and heart joy. Sonya’s doing well on her leash training & being very patient with me as I talk with you. I’m getting hungry so I better get a move on…not good to go to a grocery store hungry. I think I’ll buy a little yogurt in addition to the bigger one so I have fuel for the walk home. It’s a beautiful, sunshine-y Montana day. I hope your day is as beautiful, my sweet. I know I’ll be finding time to write to you a bit throughout my day & I’ll come down later to post. Happy Sunday, my Beloved. I imagine your smile, your soothing voice, and your laughter, and my heart feels good and I smile, too. All my love.