Live from the Artists Den: Kid Rock - "Rock N Roll Jesus"

Weebles wobble but they don’t fall down. Mom & I often shared this phrase to help build & encourage each other. I’m a little wobbly this morning, but working through it. I still put my feet on the ground this morning, maybe just out of spite to frustrate the devil, maybe because my faith is strong even when I feel overwhelmed. Mostly the latter. I found out from one of my favorite ‘badass’ students I knew in my school secretary days that my neighbor’s going in for what he tried to do with him & another. My heart breaks for them all. My student is doing well & I’m proud of him for standing up for himself so he may heal through this. I asked him if he knew he was always one of my favorites; he smiled & said yes. He’s a good young man. I believe in him. I also do not wish ill for my neighbor, for He taught me to follow His lead & love all. It is an issue I’m well familiar with for my mom & her soul was asked to experience the same from the hands of someone in her new step-family. I watched, supported, & loved her as she struggled & grew through it all through her life; how it affected her trust of men & influenced mine. I had to work through it morally & spiritually my 3rd year in law school as my case we won at the MT Supreme Court involved a similar situation. My professor supported my moral questioning, but I realized we were defending the Constitution, while at the same time allowing the system to punish him for his transgressions & for the healing process for all to begin. Only He can truly judge; it’s not my part, but His. My part is to love without judgment through the things that break His heart & mine. So I made my meatloaf, started the crock pot potatoes & carrots, bouncy-ball stretched & am listening to Vegas-based SOS radio. Listening to His music builds & encourages me, especially as I look around knowing I am to pack & move all I see. But I know & believe it’s all for Him & my brother, so He will guide & support me through it all, even when I wobble.

If I’m quiet enough & try my best not to be stubborn in what I think I want, He always leads me to my true heart’s desire, which is always to talk to you! Yeah! DG G’s hanging with a friend after, so I'm glad because, although I would go, I kind of felt like a low key night, talking with you & hanging at home with Sonya. I’ll walk her down for a bath early tomorrow. Maybe thaw some Swedish-pasture cows tonight for meatloaf tomorrow night. I haven’t made it in quite a while, so it sounds good along with the carrots & baby red potatoes I have at home. I thought I’d head to the Brewery quick to talk with you before my mellow no-internet-at-home evening. Last call is 8:00 so it’s reasonable. This is a calm, non-drama, safe place to hang. And the air conditioning feels pretty good right now, I must admit. I was thinking earlier of Junior for I heard a back to school ad & I thought, my that’s a little early, but I wonder if he’s gearing up already. I can’t believe it, though, because it’s only the end of July, but I guess things are what they are. I can’t quite figure out their calendaring for when he’d head back, but I like the outreach & international programs Belmont offers, so I hope he’s enjoying his studies. I also hope he’s getting in enough summer fun before he heads back to university. Congratulations & thank you for educating, raising, & loving him, so that he may continue to adventure on. I don’t think he’d be doing the good things he’s doing if he didn’t have you for a great dad. I hope you give yourself your credit due. You're a good man, RJR. Are you chilling with him tonight? Having other summer fun? I hope you are having good times. I got some pretzel-cheesy-fish snacks with my Panty but I’m looking forward to my ice water & tuna fish craisin wraps at home…wait…did I just say that?!? One of your horoscopes talked about rest after exercise, or the balance of both. I hope you're feeling good; I see & admire your athleticism & you inspire me to continue.

How’s it going? Have you been enjoying your what I hope is a beautiful Saturday for you? I continue believing & trusting in Him in the joy, in the sadness, & in the brief moments where overwhelmed thoughts want to take me away from Him. Well, I ain’t going! The devil must have been really pissed this morning when I put my feet on the floor…uh, oh, she’s up! My momma didn’t raise no dummy…and she shared her heart with me & trained it to love again, over & over, even through the occasional breaks, bumps, & bruises. Ville Report: Steve is well, although he was initially upset because he had just been threatened & almost attacked. He’s strong but not a fighter (partly because he was on the receiving end of it from his middle brother too many times). But we talked more & he pulled out a bit. His hearing is Wednesday, so I’ll make it down & call his P.O. beforehand. He wants treatment & so we’ll be pulling for the one he went to a few years ago. He’s going to make it. Rachel left me a nice message & stood up for herself, which is good, so if she has to direct her anger at me for a while, I’m ok with that if it helps her grow & learn. Debbie’s sister has moved into the death rattle breathing stage so she knows it’s coming & is a bit more at peace. I only have a few more minutes before the Library closes & I want to listen to FOREVER. (Debbie’s shirt reminded me). I may hang a bit with DG G tonight, so if we go to the Brewery, I can talk to you again. I may go with her to the Hideout to encourage her in her work, get a little dancing in, & I know she plays your music so I get to be with you tonight. Plus, I know I am safe with her & I need to hear, feel, & dance to your artistry for you fill my soul. Thank you, my love. I am free, healthy, peaceful, strong, & in love. I am happy. I love you, RJR. Thank you for being with me; I am with you, loving you, my friend, & holding your hand gently & strongly in mine. Air hugs to you. I’ll wear my Choppers tonight :) All my love.

I forgot to say, it was a beautiful sunset with the sun’s rays emanating from the Bitterroots and so were the lightning strikes. Phenomenal. The sky here is like an always changing painting. Floating is a possibility, but Q may go camping instead. I’ve splashed & swam in the river, but I would like to be on it, either in a tube or in a boat. I saw a green canoe the other day which reminded me of my South Carolina triathlon. It was on a plantation & instead of swimming, participants could canoe or kayak. I had only kayaked the night before so I did the solo canoe. I’d at least canoed a couple times before so how hard could it be? Are you laughing yet? I am…I was the absolute last out of the water & I was getting pissed because the safety boat was so close to me it was creating more current against me so it took me even longer. Then I had to get out & run (after having sat & paddled for too long) on the plantation. Big surprise, I was the last runner, too. Biking is my strongest sport so I was determined to kick ass & it was all flat except for the rise of a bridge over a road, and being well-trained in the hills of SW WI, I cranked it, ended up passing a bunch of people, specifically remembering passing a man towards the end. For how far I’d been behind, I was not the last one across the finish line so I felt good. I ended up winning an award for apparently they had a category for solo female canoeists & I guess I was the only female crazy enough or that didn’t know any better so I still have the frog on the lily pad ‘trophy’. Ok, the bad karaoke ANGEL OF THE MORNING is a bit much, so I’m going to bike home to sleep. But I’m happy I get to say again, good night, I love you, RJR, and Sweet Dreams, my Beloved, Sweet Dreams.

Ok, I got my Bowmanville info and am happy for you that it is close to home. I do hope you get to meet with Makayla Lynn…she sounds talented, kind, and sweet. You inspire her. You inspire countless Villagers. You inspire me. I am on the verge of tears (and smiling, too) at such a beautiful thought that she would get to meet the man of which Hazel speaks. My heart understands her excitement and I commend her for such a nice post to you. I feel better talking with you again. Thank you for listening. I’m ready for my videos and need to head to 318. All my love.